Wednesday
Just scaned my computer and there are three viruses... [So scary] In my past history of being a computer nerb [which i don't reallie belong in this catogory], this is my FIRST time having viruses.. and 3 of which in one shot!.. WOW - power!
Anyway, Just Finished chior and the very short guitar lesson with Joyce and Julian... I didn't know that Julian can play the guitar... ACTUALLY, he is quite good in playing the guitar - impressed I must say. [modestly, he still says that he's playing that only for leisure] .. Anyway, I have a NEW TEACHER LIAO... - quite happy =0)
Well, over the pass few weeks [if anyone did notice], I spent a lot of time thinking. This holiday is something I was looking forward too - in all these years of life, my scehdule is always backed to the max [pre-booking if u ever one to get hold of me or date me out].. Now, that I have quite a few months of rest - I'm feeling quite guilty [ feels as if I have not accompliahed anything and I'm just wasting time] ... To think about it, I wake up late.. watch TV and TV, playing some instruments ..., eat dinner, watch more TV.. and sleep!
When I begin to feel this way, a voice tells me that it isn't because that I don't accomplished anything but it's a certain peacefulness that I have found. A sernitity .. calmness in doing things in enjoying Life..
Things are a little different, When I was swimming in the pool, I realised how clear and clam the water was, yet, my heart feels a certian level of heavyness and weary-ness. I'm really quite tired of A LOT OF stuff, to the extend that I can't find peacefulness. To add on to that, I beginning to feel a new direction in my service to God, but the message is WAIT. Being a little impatient, WAIT isn't my fav word.. Remembered a bible phase: where the maids had to wait for the bridegroom till he appears.
I just don't feel that peacefulness that I once experience. I have been searching - I guess main because of the new directions that I have yet to understand and see. Maybe to a certain extend that I'm too busy waiting that my mum hopes that I would get out of the house a little more often. [- i find it hard to date myself out sometimes].. - u can try dating me out! .. whahah [- firstly I don't have money and I don't going out as much as I used to enjoy the company] ... I will stick to the loners Q!
I guess I have quit being so BUSY waiting and enjoy life a little more. FOr one thing that I have accomplished - I have grown a lot more spiritually ... and I can play the guitar ... =0) - Good enough for now!
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[Joyce] Frankly speaking, it's not u don't know who to do Maths, it's just of the STUPID CARELESS MISTAKES.. or else, u would have gotten an A! .. so next time, don't be so happy that u just pass.... ONLY! ... i'll be happier if u get a B!.. so WORK HARD - u are progressing liao [ i bet valerie must be happy for u]
Frankly
princess maddie.
